Well, it is becoming increasingly obvious that A is indeed avoiding me.
Since we last chatted (A chat with A) I've emailed him once, messaged him a half dozen times and today, sent him a text: Hope you are well. Can we speak soon? I miss you.

He came online about 2 minutes later, went straight to BUSY-ON THE PHONE then disappeared again.
When A and I first broke up he cut all ties with me. I believe he even changed his phone number, not that I bothered trying to call. A was a different person back then though, full of self-doubt and misery. Surly he wasn't that upset over our last conversation that he could totally freeze me out. We've been friends for almost a decade now after all...

It's starting to hurt. I've been so busy lately with the repairs to the house, the impending move to Canada and random other distractions that I've hardly had time to worry. plus, until today I just assumed it was probably a miscommunication.

Could it still be?

If anyone can be bothered to read 'A chat with A' and 'A sorry for A' and just tell me what the fuck is going on!? I don't speak boy very well.

I miss A. We've had a lot of good times and bad. I suppose for awhile last summer I wondered if we could make a go of it but I was unhappy in my relationship and A made me feel loved, appreciated, desired and needed. He needed me and at the time I needed him.

I wanted him to know it was the end of the emotional affair but if I knew I had risked the entire relationship, would I have done the same?