I know I was out of line. I sent an email as soon as I woke up! I'm sorry! I was so tired and just so frustrated and I regret what I said.
However, I wasn't 'messing with your life'. I just saw our situation last year and realised that if you were/are unhappy right now that I can't be the person who makes you feel better. You have always been good to me in that way; thank you.
I NEVER SAID YOU WERE IN A LOVELESS MARRIAGE! I have the chat saved if you would like to go over it! I said maybe you needed to think about why you have me stored in a corner of your mind because I asked myself the same question and the answer made me realise how unhappy I was.
I think it's good you're taking some time. You obviously need to. I just wish you'd be man enough to confront me. You haven't got a clue what I've put myself through because you couldn't/wouldn't speak to me. I'm not sure I'll ever forget that. Two times too many for me I think.
You didn't come to me saying you were feeling down btw. You came to me saying you had loads to tell me, being cryptic and not saying anything at all. I just thought, sod this. He needs to know where we stand. Yes, I AM in love. Shouldn't you be happy for me?
John, honestly, if this is about how you feel for me then I think you really need to think about the fact that you have had, over the past 10 years, numerous opportunity to have me. Even the last night we spoke I asked you straight out if you wanted me. I will never ask you again because I will no longer allow myself to care about the answer.
Speak to me again when you can. And I really do wish nothing but the best for you.
